PS: The Apology I Wish I’d Gotten

I wrote the apology I wish Sam had had the courage to write to me. (Warning, really long and totally theoretical.)

Turns Out Sam Faked Her Notes

If you wondered about Sam's honesty while I saw her, wait until you see what I discovered when my attorney requested her notes.

How Much Gaslighting Before You Go Up In Smoke?

Our last arguments, almost, where everything became unhinged and continuing to see her became untenable.

Three Months of Hell

We went back to twice weekly sessions, but it only made things worse as Sam disclosed more and more, making me feel closer and closer as she both implied and explicitly spoke about our intimate relationship.

My Breakdown

I experienced deep emotional turmoil after Sam messed up her first attempt to handle the aftermath of her gaslighting me.

Sam Wants to Talk About Our Relationship

In the summer of 2020, during the Covid pandemic, Sam wanted to discuss our relationship. I objected, stating that our interactions were strictly professional. Despite this, she continued to insist on the existence of a relationship, referencing psychoanalytic concepts like transference and countertransference. One of the cruxes of this story is Sam's ability (or inability) to manage her own countertransference.

If Sam Were Writing This Case Study

What if Sam were writing this case study about me? This post is a fictional (but plausible) start to a case study by Sam about the same events.