I wrote the apology I wished my therapist had had the courage to write. It's long, it's theoretical, and writing it was the point.
PS: The Apology I Wish I’d Gotten
Category: Matt’s Theorizing
Theorizing as to how the underlying facts of the case may have affected Sam’s behavior.
Turns Out Sam Faked Her Notes
When my attorney requested my therapist's session notes, what we found was that she had falsified them. Here's what that looked like.
How Much Gaslighting Before You Go Up In Smoke?
Our sessions devolved into arguments. She denied saying things she had said. I couldn't make her stop, and I couldn't make myself leave.
Three Months of Hell
We went back to twice-weekly sessions. Sam disclosed more and more. The more she disclosed, the closer I felt — and the more confused and trapped.
My Breakdown
What a nervous breakdown actually looks and feels like from the inside, triggered not by a life event but by the person who was supposed to prevent one.
Sam Wants to Talk About Our Relationship
My therapist kept bringing up "who we are to each other." I kept saying: you're my therapist. She kept not accepting that answer.