PS: The Apology I Wish I’d Gotten

I wrote the apology I wish Sam had had the courage to write to me. (Warning, really long and totally theoretical.)

Three Months of Hell

We went back to twice weekly sessions, but it only made things worse as Sam disclosed more and more, making me feel closer and closer as she both implied and explicitly spoke about our intimate relationship.

An Expert Weighs In

The professional judgement of Dr. Paul Appelbaum, a world renown forensic psychologist, with opinions as to how Sam "markedly deviated" from her responsibilities as a therapist.

The First Next Session

Despite my initial desire to end things, Sam persuades me to continue seeing her. What a mistake.

Letter to Sam

My goodbye letter to Sam. (Spoiler, it didn't stick, and that's why there's more of this blog.)

The Beginning

Everyone wonders what their therapist thinks of them. Mostly, we want to know if they think we're normal. Sometimes we want to know if we're their favorite patient. I now had some idea: she wanted me to like her.

What Makes This More Than A Story

You're going to read about my breakdown. I'll introduce myself and a pseudonym for my former therapist in another post. What makes this more than just me telling my story is that I will post recordings, images of texts and emails, and some of her notes.

Boundary Violations – A Simple Intro

It is fundamental that anyone who goes to a therapist is there to get help with their own problems, not to be a solution to the therapist’s. That's not how it turned out in this case. Here's a little explainer on boundaries and why they're important in therapy.